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Clockwork Orange by RichardGeorgeDavis

First off, I'd like to congratulate you on a job well done. It seems as though you've spent a lot of time on this piece. I love the ste...

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Cheyenne
Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
United States
Music lover
Car enthusiast
Anglophile
Turtle appreciator
History buff
Eyebrow fetishist
Agoraphobe
City person
Ninja master
Art and literature critic
ROCK MASTER
Okay maybe just rock lover
Comic book freak
Celebrity stalker
Hewlett-Packard diehard
Feminist
Conspiracy theorist

And above all.... a 15-year-old girl with Internet connection :dummy:
Sexuality: I don't even know anymore
Interests
  • Mood: Angsty
  • Listening to: Stand By Me by Ben E King
  • Reading: The Fellowship of the Ring
  • Playing: The Wind Waker
  • Eating: fruit snaaaacks
Which, for the past few days, has been a rather poor excuse for interesting!

Soooo it might be a good idea to come out here, now, on DeviantArt. A week ago I discovered that I am attracted to teh ladehs as well as men. And I don't really care much if he or she or other pronoun identifies with whatever of the many genders that there are-- that puts me at pansexual. Although, if we wanna get really technical, I already identified as a greysexual, meaning that I very, very rarely experience any sort of attraction at all. Basically, here's how it works. When I am presented with the idea of sex, except in the case of very few people, my response will be "mmkay sure" and when asked about gender I'll be like "whatevs"

My sister is moving in with her fiance on Sunday. This is.... bittersweet, because I get along really well with her, and obviously she's my sister and I love her, and I won't be seeing her fiance much (who I pretty much refer to as my brother). Originally they had planned to have me over sometimes for weekends-- they're moving to an apartment within an hour's drive-- but since they are not married my mother has forbid me to visit while my sister's fiance is around. I am so fucking incensed. This basically means that I won't be seeing much of my brother almost at all because of my mother's ridiculous need to shove her 'values' down my throat. What the fuck does she think she's doing, protecting me from my sister's evil? "Oh my god how dare you move in with your fiance when it's clearly the most emotionally and financially smart decision, and also you've been dating three and a half years, but you don't have a stupid fucking certificate so fuck you, your little sister won't be corrupted by your witchcraft." Fucking. HONESTLY.
In protesting against this fucking ridiculous situation, I ended up causing my mother to lose her shit and scream at me that she feels like I'm constantly judging her for her values. FUCKING NO. YOU'RE THE ONE DOING THE FUCKING JUDGING HERE. AND THEN FORCING YOUR JUDGMENTAL BULLSHIT ON ME. SHUT THE FUCK UP. I HAVE EDUCATED MYSELF ABOUT MORALITY BETTER THAN YOU EVER HAD THE HOPE OF DOING. Oh, I might like to add that she was fucking sobbing because apparently my heathenism has upset her to the point where she thinks she's failed as a parent.
Being brought up in a 'traditional' Catholic household has done nothing to help my inherent anger issues.
God, no. I'm just so fucking sick of it. I know I sound like a stupid teenager, but you know what? This is only a little sample of the bullshit that I put up with.
I mean, I could go on for pages, but I feel like no one actually wants to read that. I sorta want to get it out, though. I feel like I need to rant, maybe that'll make me feel a bit better.

Part of me wants to get off of Tumblr, because it is doing absolutely nothing for my dirt-poor self-esteem, because nobody on Tumblr fucking likes me and I don't know how to get people to like me.

I mean, that's not the only stuff I have to rant about, but like I said, no one wants to hear my bullshit.

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Windaddyflex Featured By Owner Jul 3, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Hey...so I found this and thought "Cheyenne would love this".....
i.imgur.com/rrH6DmK.jpg
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roqueofspades Featured By Owner Jul 5, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
*sensible chuckle*
imgur.com/gallery/VDD7cln
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Windaddyflex Featured By Owner Jul 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I knew you'd like it ;)
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likwidlead Featured By Owner May 7, 2014
Thank you for the fave! :spidey:
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Windaddyflex Featured By Owner Apr 28, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
How've you been, O Sarcastic One?
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roqueofspades Featured By Owner Apr 28, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Oh, JUST FINE, I've been GREAT.
I'm good, thanks, I'm actually getting homework done without too much procrastinating because I've actually not been a dick about taking my meds, ehe xD but actually doing things makes me so happy! And I wrote a poem that I neeeed to post on dA. What about you, O Guitar Player of the Great Northern Farmlands?
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Windaddyflex Featured By Owner Apr 28, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Not bad, my brother's pissing me off with his fucking itouch. He keeps filming me when he's facetiming with my other brother and laughing at me. That's one of my biggest pet peeves. I'm about ready to break the fucking thing. 

Other than that, I'm working horrible hours this week; tomorrow about 6 hours during the day then 8 hours from 11pm to 7am, then 7pm to 7am the next day. 
Oh, and we had 4 tornadoes touch down within 10 miles of our house in less than 24 hours. 
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roqueofspades Featured By Owner Apr 28, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Well, things certainly don't seem to be going so well for you.
As for your brother, I would highly suggest taking off your pants every time he does it.
As for your long hours.... jesus fucking christ that sounds horrible and disgusting but if it makes you feel better you're nocturnal just like vampires and vampires are really cool and can turn into bats so if you're ever bored try turning into a bat it might work
As for the tornadoes, try hiding in a rickety house. When you wake up, you'll be worshiped by a bunch of really short people.
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Windaddyflex Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
What does agoraphobe mean?
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roqueofspades Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
It's the opposite of claustrophobia-- the fear of wide open spaces. A nightmare for me would consist of just being in an endless wasteland, I would run in circles and cry.

Actually, more people are agoraphobes than claustrophobes.
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